Strong hearts and minds

This morning I am overwhelmed. I sat reading and rereading my schedule and paperwork for the IVF process I just got so afraid and overwhelmed. I am trying to keep the faith but this is almost too much. As it stands right now, beginning tomorrow, I will have at least 1 shot a day until the end of January possibly longer. Some days more shots and meds and tons of blood work. All of which I absolutely hate. I was a an adult before I could get my blood drawn without bawling like a baby. Last week I was so excited to be at this point but now I am so scared.

I sit back and just feel so frustrated. I feel like why me? Why do I have to go through all of this to have a baby? Why do so many people frivolously get pregnant and then abort their child when I would love to have that opportunity to "choose" life for our child and give a baby such a good life? So many people, even friends, complain about pregnancy pains, being sick and what messes their kids make around the house and I just think be grateful! 

In the end this still, small voice keeps saying to enjoy my journey. I know that the reward will be so worth all of this and that this process is grooming me/us for something ahead. Hopefully all of this will grow me to be able to help someone else enjoy their journey. In the beginning I though IVF would be hard but now I realize just how hard this is both emotionally and physically. I am SO grateful to have this opportunity and SO glad I have my husband by my side and our entire family behind us praying and giving all they can and I know this is what is meant to be in our lives. Today I am praying for strength. Strength to go through all of this and strength to learn whatever God has for me. 

The thought of the day is a strong hearts and minds.